Voices in my Heart: I promise...

Wednesday, August 03, 2005

I promise...

Yesterday went to ktv... Sang from 2 to 7pm... Haha~ Realli enjoyed myself alot!!! We went out cos it was Jenxi's birthday... =) Teased him n Xuanwei a little bit... Yes! A little bit onli!!! Haha! Anyway, Xuanwei's voice is REALLY gd lar. It was the second time I hear her sing... Both time, my heart melted... Aiyo... If I'm a guy, I'd realli fall in love wif her...voice. Lol!
I sang quite a few Hokkien songs wif Shiqi... It was one of the few times I sang Hokkien songs at ktv ba... Sang quite a few Hokkien songs wor... Brought back alot of fond memories... I learnt how to sing Hokkien songs since I was like 3 years old? Haha! Cos my parents love to sing alot... When I was young, they would bring me to ktv at night time... With their frens... Haha! Then we'll all sing til like 3 am... Tt time was realli veri veri fun!! Singin songs after songs wif all those uncles n aunties... So wat's the best part? It's tt after singin, we'll go to this restaurant tt sells realli delicious potato porridge... Ha~ I love it ALOT then lor... =D
Haiz... Realli ah... After my father left us, my mother n I seldom sing Hokkien songs anymore... Mayb cos we are afraid tt we might not be able to take it? Mayb we feel that we are still not strong enough to handle the memories tt those songs will bring back?... I dunno... But all I know is that... My heart is still not strong enough... When I hear certain songs, remember certain things... Anything.. Just anything tt bring back memories of my father... I cant help it but cry... Guess I realli need more time ba... More time to accept, more time to let go... It's not as easy as I tot it will be... Everytime when I tot I alreadi let go... I will find out (soon enuf) tt I haven let go enough... Too tough... Too tough for me... It was realli these past few years when I realli got closer to my father... I dunno y he will juz suddenly leave all of us. I cant accept it... It's so unfair. Call me selfish, call me stubborn... I dun care...
Anyway, I strongly believe that Time can heals all wounds... This WILL not be an exception... One day... One day I'll realli be able to let go... I promise...

Voices in my Heart

I promise...

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